Readjusting Your Internal Clock

This morning I woke up to the rain hitting the roof outside my window. Life promised to this desert land called the panhandle. However I was uncomfortably an hour early for my arrival back to conscientiousness. I turned on the tv to a movie I wanted to continue watching from last night. The credits rolled to Singing In The Rain one of my favorite songs. I chose to let it be what I lived by today. "Come on with the rain there's a smile on my face." Then I realized it was cold, my hair didn't dry as awesome as I wanted it to, and that movie literally had 30 seconds left until it was over. I switched the channel to VH1. Jennifer Hudson's beautiful voice flooded my room. However she was singing a phrase that would absolutely kill Mrs. Reed. Where You At? How can you combine such a magnificent talent with the phrase Where You At? Really?! I walked to class quickly wanting to avoid the cold as much as possible. I can walk. My hands are almost frozen and I type. I'm on a huge mac! Through out my life thus far I have realized that choice and regret are the major topics I dwell on in my life. Today's deals with the wonderful power of choice. This morning I woke angry but I have been given another day. I was encouraged by the power of song! Who can be angry about that? Life is composed of choices. A choice to take things personally. Happiness. Today I let situations that have happened over the past few days bog me down. All of the sudden I feel very alone. I fight my need to talk to someone. My self esteem shines. I'm not alone. I have the best family in the world! I am super blessed with friends! I have to never ending love of a merciful God. I have a choice to smile. I have no reason not to. I have been provided with all I need. Choice. Given. Make the most of it. Just be happy.



This is my most favorite quote from the book called Taming the Beast. Throughout this girl's life she gives all she has to the thing she wants and loves most, both her emotions and most influential her future. Yet throughout all of her troubles she realizes that no matter what happened in your life, it's your life. Whether you lived it or not it's yours, there you can find all you have ever needed.

"But then life was a constant withering of possibilities. some are stolen with the lives of the people you know. Other's are let go with regret and reluctance and deep, deep sorrow. But there is compensation for lives unlived in the intoxicating joy of knowing-right here, right now- is the one you have chosen. There is power in that, and hope."